i suppose that is the big question, we look back at our lives to see the present moment and why we are unhappy or struggling. i believe there is no forgiveness, i just can’t see it and some would have you believe it is the best medicine to free yourself.
as i look at my life and know that i am and will never be happy, only because my choices were at best the wrong path but that is the question: in that moment in time, how did we know we would be making the wrong choice?
we did not.
i do not believe that either because is a gut feeling you get when you are making choices and you know they feel wrong but you do them anyways. the other factor is that we make those choices for the wrong reason, then you realize when you get older how ungrateful you are for your own personal damage.
the choices should be for yourself and not for the gain of someone else.
i did so much of that i truly believe it sucked the life out of me.